Thursday, 27 June 2013
Rewind back about 2-3 years ago when I was 16, I got my first proper job working in a shop, I also did babysitting jobs on the side. I decided I wanted my own savings, so over a 3-4 month period I saved nearly every penny I made and saved £500. It was really tough though, because I was very strict with myself, for example one of the ways I avoided spending money was by not going out with friends, which I now realise was a stupid thing to do because I missed out on makin' memories and a chance to bond with my friends. It took until last year when I bought an iPod Touch for the money to run out completely (I had been spending it but then replacing it like a week or two later) and it freaked me out not having my 'safety net' of money lying in the bank. But after a while I had to put up with it and I really got to know the feeling of having absolutely no money (since I was 16 I had chosen not to financially depend on my mum or dad at all) and at times it was okay but others it was really depressing when I couldn't afford basic things such as face wipes!
After a while it got better and I was making a decent amount of money and things were easy for me. However my financial circumstances changed earlier this year and meant I had to to try to go back into 'strict-saving-mode' and scrape together money to pay for a college trip to New York I had signed up for before things changed. However, I just couldn't click into saving-mode, probably because I had emotionally scarred myself from being so strict when I was 16 (I only have myself to blame) and I was therefore rebelling against myself... I am a weird one aren't I? Something to bare in mind is that I get payed in cash as and when I work so I get small amounts of money at a time which is spent before it reaches my savings account!
Since then my attitude about spending money has started to change and I have become sentimental (buying things I don't need just because they remind me of my late Grandmother), I have become frivolous (I pass a newsagents and can't help buying a magazine or pack of sweets just because I have the money). And I have no self control when I enter H&M. So as you can see- things need to change.
My self-diagnosis is: I HAVE BECOME AN EMOTIONAL SHOPPER! Something I swore I would never be because I have seen relatives and friends fall into debt, and the crippling effects of it. I fear that my first instalment of my student loan in September will suffer due my current lack of respect towards my money. The only cure I can think of is to begin saving again, slowly but surely. I will go out with friends but I will avoid shopping for clothes and accessories unless I know I can control myself. I will employ the 'Do I need It? Can I live without it? Will this item bring any significance to my life?' tactics. I also need to start being grateful for all the things I have already, I need to tone down this materialistic side of myself and enjoy the experiences life has to offer- such as travel! But that is for another post...
Thanks for listening
XOXO (the xoxo is because I am currently influenced by Gossip Girl- don't judge!)
Sunday, 23 June 2013
Killing two birds with one stone (which I condemn in the literal sense of course)... I am testing the Blogger app and showing off a photo of my bed! I made it earlier so it is now SUPER COMFY and HYGIENIC and hopefully the springs are nicely nestled underneath the 4 duvet covers I put on top and will no longer cause me uncomfortableness! (I know that is not actually a word, don't worry!)
I decided to start a blog for many reasons:
- I feel like my personal style and fashion sense is developing and I want to share my 'journey'
- I am an art student ALL ART STUDENTS MUST HAVE BLOGS! No, but it feels like that sometimes.
- I enjoy writing, and I think I am pretty decent at it too
- I want to challenge myself and I think blogging will help me 'grow' as a person
- I have big boobs and thick curly hair- two things Barbie never had! I haven't found anyone on Youtube or in the blogosphere that I can relate to in terms of styling outfits for girls with big boobs! So I hope I can be that girl!
- I ignored all these reasons for ages because I was too lazy/anxious/scared about 'putting myself out there!' and actually doing it. However, I have chosen not to stop myself any longer!
At this point in time I don't know what 'type' of blog this is or what my posts will be about so I'm just going to put up whatever I feel like and see how it goes y'all!!